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Sunday, 12 October 2014

The Normal Heart

Salam Hi..

kli ni, ak nk citer psl satu movie yg wat ak xlena tdo semalam (11/11/2014)..citer tu br je ditayangakn pd May 2014 by HBO Films...

citer tu berkisar ttg aktivis2 PLHIV mse HIV/AIDS br discovered awal 1980an dlu..huhu..sgt menyayat ati...w/pun watak citer tu ad yg btul n ad yg rekaan,but it eas based on true PLU experience mse tu..huhu..

dkt dua jam ak tgk movie tu and most of d time it touches my heart..huhu...mmg sdeh..ssh nk ungkpakn perasaan ni..

cume ad la jgak best part ny..cth: watak utama yg xpnah b'cinta..tetiba dpt s/one spesel....tp mlgny hubungan dorg xlme coz dat s/one spesel ad HIV/AIDS...and later died...huhu..

btw..dlm movie tu,ditnjukkn cmne rakyat Amerika mse tu m'punyai stigma t'hdp HIV/AIDS and some of dem towards PLU..

scr jujurnya, mcm2 perasaan timbul dlm ati ak...sdeh..takot pon ade....but ak hany mmpu t'peruk dlm bilk n xsdar air mata dh bergenang..erhhh..cuak wei..hahaha..

d same feeling pon pnah timbul mse ak tgk teater psl HIV/AIDS yg pnah dipentaskn br2 ni...huhu...p'samaan pd kedua2 citer adlh: utk buang stigma masyarakat t'hdp PLU/AIDS ni..hmm..cume kt Malaysia (tanah tumpahnya darahku yg dicintai) ni, persepsi negatif t'hdp PLU pon msh tebal in some of Malaysians...aptah lg la stigma masyarakat kt HIV/AIDS ni..dat is d main challenge la..huhu..nk citer kt fmili members pon tkot..tp ak taw..pnting sbnrny nk bg taw sape2 yg related..ntah la wei..huhu

w/pun ak sdeh2 or meratap psl diri ak ni...it wont change anything...it's just a feeling yg ssh org nk fhm...or mgkin xde yg fhm..plus,ak ni x la sekuat mne pon utk s'tiasa b'fikiran positif..i am trying..but really need some times..huhuhu..lonly weih...huhu...so..lps tgk movie tu,ak trus tdo..dat is one way for me to get rid of doz feelings..huhu..

i know,most of u bkn PLHIV..mgkin xde yg kesah pon psl ap yg jd kt org2 mcm ak ni pon...and i know it's difficult to stop u guys frm having sex...sbb ak pon gagal utk halang diri ak..but u guys shud beware of it...pndai2 la jge diri dlm dunia PLU ni..jgn jd mcm ak ni haa..huhu..

ad beberapa scene n dialog yg ak suke dlm citer tu..antarany:-
1) dialog seorg pmpuan yg mntk nk join d PLHIV grup/NGO: "...pls use me for something.."
2) scene bf kpd hero tu b'tany pd doc pmpuan ttg s/ada HIV leh b'jangkit tru kiss dan blh x klo dorg gne protection to prevent it frm spreading...but d doc mcm annoyed dgn soklan2 tu as if: ko nk mati pon,ko leh pikir cmtu kn?..haha..(situasi ni pnah jd kt ak mse 1st time jmpe doc hr tuu..)
3) d sadist and romantic scene mse watak utama jmpe s/one spesel...stlh lme m'cari dan xpnah ad bf sblm tu..huhu...(at least dat bf ad org jage utk hadapi bnda2 ni..x mcm ak ni la..hmm..)
4) scene sdeh ble ad slh sorg kritikal patient yg duk sorg kt wad..merapu n ckp sorg2...last2 dia ckp: I miss him...:(
5) dialog bf yg tgh sakit teruk kpd si hero: "...I hate when u look at me"...

and just to remind u guys...ak dan org2 mcm ak pon ad perasaan n ati yg normal...maybe ad yg dh kuat hadapi bnda ni...cume ak yg lum jd sekuat dorg.......as i said in previous entry,ak bkn hero!!!..ak  xstrong!!!..haih..mcm la ad org nk amik taw hal ak ni...coz time ak struggling with doz feelings,hany ak yg akn pujuk ati ak dgn izin Tuhan...bkn ak xredha...tp skdr mengungkapkn perasaan yg ssh org nk fhm... 

k la..enjoy la tgk movie tu..klik link ni utk tgk scr streaming: The Normal Heart..
Enjoy tgk k...sbg hiburan dan p'jaran maybe..kt bwh ni adlh slh satu soundtrack dlm movie tu..best..terasa ak...haha