...heartless...

Salam sume n hi...

kli ni,xde intro berbunga2 ak leh tulis coz ak mmg xde idea..
last time ak ad post citer psl '...feelingless...'...but now,ak nk citer psl '...heartless...' pulak...
ap beza kedua2 ny??hmm...meh ak xplain..

Feelingless tu xde dlm English word pon..but to me,it's just a mere understanding as: tiada perasaan...
Heartless pulak mmg ad dlm English...dan bg ak,mksudny adlh: tiada hati perut...

to me, heartless ni adlh rse kjam dan dh xpeduli ttg pape perasaan in a bad way..tp klo feelingless lak, it's kind a ilang mud..ilang perasaan..huhu...but mgkin dua2 tu same jer..ntah la..

so yes...kli ni ak heartless....muak dh nk ad ati perut..rse ksh syg..rse prihatin...hmm...

rseny sape2 yg bce blog ni,dh tau kesah ak sblm ni kn?citer ttg: 'thank you love...' tu...hmm dan smpai skrg,ak dh xdpt pape call dr kwn ak tu..msj pon dh  xsame mcm dlu2..

mgkin bg dia,kesalahan ak tu sgt ssh utk dimaafkn...mgkin dia pnah ckp yg dia dh maafkn ak..but d way he treated me after dat indicates yg dia msh x maafkn aku...wait a minute, who r u to forgive ppl!!!?...tbe2 ak plak yg kne mntk maaf??wow..mmg hebat dunia nii...

as i said,d incidence was just on disagreement in some things..dan klo korg nk tau,ak n dia mse tu gaduh psl hal politk..which is to me,non of our business....bullshit puny reason..dan mse tu,ak tinggikn suara n ltk fon jaoh2 xnk dgr dh dia bertekak psl politik......itu yg wat dia xsuke katyeny...arghhh....fuck!!!

boleh je nk bncang psl politik ke ap ke..and u shud expect dat certain ppl has their opinion..dan ad certain mse,isu2 yg dibincang tu a bit sensitif...dia pon ad bnda yg dia sensitif yg pnah ak argue..and he imposed his silent treatment for dat reason too..mse tu,ak la yg mntk maaf bgai..coz i kno it was my fault...

now,dia yg sentuh sensitiviti ak..dia mntk maaf...dan ak dh maafkn dia...cume yg pelikny,dia dh x treat ak mcm sblm2 ni....ak plak rse serba slh n ak mntk maaf...dan setiap kli ak mntk maaf,ak ni jd mcm pengemis..mntk maaf...marayu bgai....sebak sorg2..m'jerit sorg2...arghhhh!!!..ckit pon dia x pndg nilai usaha ak mntk maaf kt dia...xpelah,mgkin dia t'lalu sempurna utk maafkn keslhn org2 hina mcm ak ni...

btw, ak xpnah pon jmpe dia...xpnah bertentang mata pon.....ap yg dia nk marahkn sgt ak xtau since i m just his plhiv online fren..yg mgkin kedudukan ak ni plg rendah dlm 'carta hati' dia....ntah la...dia yg simpan dlm ati sgt...he denied dat,but d way treated me shows o/wise..

plus,xkn krn hal sekecik tu pon nk terasa ati lme2??adoi...pnat dh ak pikir wei...ak dh xtau nk watpe..bkn ny selalu gaduh pon..skdr berselisih p'dpt dlm fon call...tu pon sgt jrg....biasa la klo member2 gaduh...adeh...ssh ak nk xplain..

ak admit,ak sgt admire kt dia..kt life dia..kt kwn2 dia...terima ksh for ur sharing and ur stories...cume kte kne ingt,kdg kte kt ats..kdg kte kt bwh....klo kte wat org ssh ati,one day akn ad jugak yg org len akn sshkn ati kte...idup ni xlme...xde mse pon utk simpan dendam...

ok,so i m just his negative element yg dia nk buang...xpela....ak fhm..thnx for giving birth to another heartless person...and i'll be his next 'jantan xgune' list..huhu..

*ad sbhgn bsr plu yg sgt 'suci' ssh utk memaafkn dan menerima semula sbhgn bsr plu yg 'hina' mcm ak ni

#dun let me alone, coz i'll feel lonly..dun make me sad, coz i'll be bad..dun make me disappointed, coz it'll turns me HEARTLESS

sorry and thanx for everything...:/ ak xkn lupe ckit pon ilmu..p'alaman dan cerita2 yg dia share kt ak.:'(