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Sunday 20 September 2015

I wish I am clean - Satu Hari Nanti

Assalamualaikum sume...pekabar?hrp sehat salu...sblm ak start merapu..meroyan,ak nk ucapkn berbnyk terima kasih kt sume yg bce n komen kt blog ak ni.ad gak yg komen kt fb dan emel trus ke private emel ak...mntk maaf klo lmbt bls..kdg x terkejar mse utk tgk blog ni...

dan spt yg korg sume tau (klo penah bce entry2 sblm ni), klo ak updet blog ni kerap,bermkne ad s/thing yg merisaukn aku..atau ad pkr2 sdeh yg aku duk terpikir..haha..sory guys..huhu...

hmm..ok..hr ni ak sempat tgk fb..tgk blog org ckit2..bls komen sume...dan mse tgh surf tenet tu,bnyk la t'nmpk post2 plu yg tgh hangat bercinta..perh..mmg ohsem la org kate...perfect kapel..kikiki..bak merpati dua sejoli..hahhaha...rse jeles tu again dtg menghantui ak..haih..jeles n sad la...

ad jgak terdetik ak nk mulakn chat or send fren request kt dorg2 ni,tp ak segan dan tkot..coz as I said, klo ak start chat,dorg either x bls, bls lmbt or bls nk xnak..hahahaa..end of d chat,aka akn ckp "sori kaco..:)" ..haha...so, aptah lg dgn kondisi ak ni,lg la tkot nk mulakn bicara...xkn dipdg pon sblh mata..kikiki... oh ye,ak ni cpt melted tgk fb 'abg2 str8'..hahaha...tp xpelah..usha2 jer pon dh cukup bgus...:p..haih..I wish I am 'Clean'...

tak dilupa jugak ad ucapan takziah ditujukan kpd rakan fb yg dah meninggal dunia....ak pnah coretkn kt entry lps2 yg ak kagum dgn mereka yg pergi tp ttp diingati...mgkin ad jasa yg dorg tabur sblm meninggal dunia..ak xtau ap akn jd kt ak nti klo ak 'pergi'...but ak xnk sshkn sume org...tkot jgak klo sume hal yg ak sembunyikn diketahui org ble smpai mse ak 'pergi'..especially fmili...tkot sgt klo pemergian ak nti memberi lbh bencana..or mgkin bahagia sbb dh kurg 'beban' fmili ak nti..kikiki...who knows kan...haha

any way,sdar x sdar dh seminggu ak idup dgn HAART..alhamdulillah,pning pale tu msh ade ckit tp x seteruk mse mula2..but kli ni,ad naek ruam...especially kt tgn...ak x perasan pon mula2..but my father did...dia ckp: npe bnyk ruam2 ni?hmm...ak just ckp,ni jerawat kt lengan kot ni..hahaa..agk2 la nk nipu pon wei..ak tny member2 plhiv yg laen dan dorg kate, by rite it might be d HAART's side efek jgak...but akn naek lg ruam tu..huhu..dan ad yg suggest ak g blk HSB,jmpe doc...hmm.....xpe...insyaAllah ok nti...'Ya Allah,ampunilah aku'..again, I wish I am clean (literally)..hahaha...huhuhu...nk nanges rse..haih...cmne la nk sorokkn ni..huhu..



oh ye,korg pnah visit cenel utube ak x?td sempat la ak melalak satu lgu..try la usha...klik vid kt entry ni or klik link ni: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twDw25zu934

WARNING; suara ak mcm katak wei...dan xde muzik iringan k..sbb xreti maen gitar..(looser gler rse..:(..)


23 comments:

  1. Stay strong my dear....

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    1. yup..stay strong..hr ni mc..hahaha..adeh..ruam tu makin naek..:p..tq komen my dear too..:)

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    2. Abg pernah Naik ruam mcm ni di tapak tgn Dan tapak kaki

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  2. omg suka gila lagu ni...and tak tau napa aku rasa kau nyanyi lagu ni ada soul dia...suara dah lah sedap...ujung ujung je macam ke laut sikit...hahaha...

    keep strong bro...

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    1. haha..perli ak letew..kikiki..sdeh lgu tu..ak pon suke...yg part last tu sbb tgh kalut tgk lirik...berdebar nk hbskn cmne..kikiki...hbs la..psni ujan la..haha

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  3. Amir rase touching even though I don't know you much....

    Stay strong bro....;-)

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    1. amir..jgn rse touching lak..ko tu laki..bluekk..kikiki..thnx bro.... insyaAllah...kne stay strong..huhu

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  4. Sora ang wat aku bdebar jerr, wlapun spesis top, ttp stim gak tgk gmbar profile, mende brketul nmpak jelas sgt, menggoda habih hbag hang. Makan ubat ikut time k,

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    1. haha..berdebar sbb xsdap letew..kikiki...sy bkn TOP la bang Jazzlee...haha...insyaAllah..kne mkn ikut ime..keep in touch bang..:) tq so much for ur support...

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    2. Haha nseb bek ang bkan top, klu x jenuh lerrr kita nk brlawan 'pedang'.

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    3. wekk..x maluu..:p ..npe abg xde blog?..ssh sy nk komen..huhu..kot ad wechat or fb ke,blh share kt email sy or komen cni (klo nk share la)..sy akn tapis komen sblm apruv..dun worry..btw,now mmg a bit moody sbb ruam xelok lg...rse nk ngaaaamuk aje..huhu...

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  5. Stay positive bro. Jgn fikirkan sgt, nnti effect kesihatan kau. Doa byk2. Personally aku rasa setiap penyakit ada ubat. Cuma belum ditemui lagi. Apapun kau be happy and enjoy your moment with loved ones. Especially parents. :)

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    1. insyaAllah bro..tq sbb bg nasehat....psl penawar,ak xmmpu nk komen...hehe..enjoy my moment?..hmm..trying..:)

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  6. sedap nyanyi.. best dengar hehe..
    be strong broh :) Allah sentiasa ada utk kau ^^
    dont give up okay :D

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    1. haha..sdap ko kate....klo sdap,ak cabar ko dgr sume lagu ak nyanyi kt cenel utube tu..haha..konfom muntah darah ko nti..kikiki..tq bro for komen..:)

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  7. Jangan lupa makan ubat ikut time, jangan lupa berehat..take care..

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    1. tq so much firus..ak pon mc smpai raya ni..huhu..

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  8. Tak sangka WK ada bakat menyanyi..lepas ni boleh try join The Voice..hehe

    Apapun,stay strong! Jgn sedih2 selalu.

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    1. cet pui..bakat kaw kate..kikiki...pitching bnyk lari k..hahaha..insyaAllah..ak pon tgh stay strong la ni..huhu...nti ak akan postkn entry psl hal ak dgn ruam ni..huhu

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  9. Salam,saje nak tanya sepanjang jadi PLHIV ni pernah tak mengalami muscle twitching,pripheral neuropathy,mata rabun,kalo malam mcm ada flashlight,saja nak share..saya dah 6 bulan buat test dari xtvt berisiko tapi masih negative..perlu ker saya buat ujian viral load utk tahu yang sya infected or not..daripda saya tk redha sampai sy redha kalo positive..insan buntu

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    1. wslm..alhamdulillah sy xde sgt mslh2 tu...klo ad pon minor kot...lgpun sy ad rutin tiap hr..senam ke..swim ke..jog ke..jd sakit2 muscle tu biasa lah..xpasan pon..xde la plak smpai truk sgt...

      hmm...xperlu buat viral load test tu..lgpun viral load test mahal..dan xsume org blh wat suke2 ati...even di klgn PLHIV pon xkn dibuat viral laod tu selagi x mkn HAART..(ini presedur kt HSB la)

      sy lbh cdgkn buat lab test utk lbh tepat..mkneny bkn stkt rapid test melalui test kit tu...tp wat kt klnik,yg amik darah gune picagari tuu...klinik swasta dlm RM50 ke bwh klo xslh..xde mhl pon..

      hrp jwpn sy mmbntu sedara..tq ye komen...:)

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