noting much but almost everything

salam n hai...

lme gler ak x update..bnyk exams hr tuh..plus,dh nk grad..plus,cr kje..xde ap sgt pun nk update...
cume...ak nk citer yg ak kno s/one (in virtual) kt fb..mmg baek la dia...cara dia chat pun ak suke..hehe..kn bgus klo dpt bf cmtu..haih..

tu la sbb ak x update cni dh..sbb bz chat dgn dia..wah..mcm date lak..haahaa..(bole la..virtual date)..hmm..i wish..

tp,dia terlalu sempurna la utk ak..mustahil la kn?..hahaa..xpela..just chat jela yg mmpu pun..
cumeny,smlm ad ckit la clash....sbb ak jmpe abg agkt ak..haih...xmo la citer pjg2 cni..sbb xde mud pun skrg..:(...sdeh gler kot..mmg nanges n xleh tdo pikir psl tuh..

at d end, i m d looser..naive....arghhhh..hate of being myself...

k la guys...ingtla org tersyg n hargailah dorg (klo ad la..)..ak ni..mmg slalu lonly..use to..huhu..bye guys..

wassalam

d making of..mimpi yg sempurna

"aku gemar memerhatikan insan-insan yang pada wajah mereka terpancar ketenangan, pada percakapan indah seribu bahsa dan pada perlakuan tertib tidak tercela....."

salam n hai again...sblm mula pape..tlg klik audiao kt ats tu..plz2..:)

ok..ap kaitan tjuk blog ni dgn my story kli ni?haha..post kli ni pun utk jwb certain thing yg dipersoalkn kt ak..haha..

1)ad org kate,ak ni mudah sgt nk baek dgn org..nk kwn dgn org n mudah sgt nk feeling dgn org..haha..adoi..hakikatny,sume2 tu berbeza....

ak mmg mudah caye kt org n wat baek kt org..w/pun lum knal lme..kdg2 org tu wat taik pun ak wat baek..haih..pelik dan naif sungguh..huhu..ak xtau nape..tp,ak diajr utk wat baek je..xdiajr wat jht..:)

mmg ak pun mudah nk kwn dgn org..ak x bnyk kwn sgt..sbb tu ak suke cr kwn2 br..xkesah la in actual or in virtual..dan ak treat kwn2 ak equally..xde nk pilih2 org ensem ke..xensem ke..sbbny;ak pun xensem..haha..tp,stil ad exception..yg psiko..ak tkot nk jmpe..huhuhu..plus..ak xmo knal org yg nk puaskn nafsu semata..ak dh serik woo..huhuhu..

psl feeling..hmm,i wud prefer to use word..admiring..ak mmg mudah admire kt s/one yg ak rse layak utk dihrgai..(sbb tu la dia disukai kn..haha)..hmm..honestly,ak mmg suke nk knal2 dgn org2 yg special..i mean,yg perfect pd pdgn org rmai la..yg gud looking..yg baek..yg peramah..plg best tgk doz persons yg slalu solat..hehe...wah..sweet2..

ni bkn feeling,tp suke tgk org2 cmni..dan suke nk m'dekatkn diri dgn org2 cmni..sbb,ak nk jd mcm dorg..yg bg kebnykn org,perfect..:)..ak pun nk bljr bnyk bnda dr dorg..especialy ttg idup dorg yg slalu bertuah..(pd pdgn ak la..)..ak cume anggap dorg2 ni (especialy yg actual person) as my guidance n abg2 or akak2..hehe..in fact,klo dorg senyum n tgur ak je pun,ak rse sgt dihrgai..sbb ad gak org perasan yg ak adlh sbhgn dr dorg..so,aptah lg klo doz persons yg wat baek dgn ak..btul x?..hehe..i repeat..it just a feeling of epiness n excitements dat i m being appreciated..;)

so..diz is only d making of my dream..dat is to be apreciated...a perfect dream..mmpi yg sempurna

2)some say..ap yg ak wat ni adlh utk sedapkn ati ak..i mean..pape aktiviti ak adlh utk sedapkn ati ak..i wud say:YES..ak join bnyk aktiviti n knal bnyk kwn sbb ak nk ilangkn rse lonly ak..huhu..(but still lonly la..)..huhu..

plus..p'alaman2 ak wat ak cuak utk hadapi akn dtg..ak pnah gak pts asa..hmm..tp alhamdulillah,ak ad msh Tuhan..ad agama..klo x..xtau ler..huhu..so,i m quoting myself again.... "dan pape aktiviti n rutin yg ak wat skrg is just to deviate me fr hurting myself;dat is to fall for s/one deeper..huhu"

vid bwh ni...d making of mimpi yg sempurna..new learner..hehe..

just wanna be a part of s/ting

salam hai sume..lme gak ak x update..nk msk musim exam..huhu..ni pun xleh lme2..hehe..nk stadi ckit..hehe..ok..kli ni,ak cume nk citer ttg ak..(as always la kn..haha)..

sume org nk jd yg terhebat among yg terhebat kn?..maybe ad yg xnk jd hebat..tp dia mmg dh dilahirkn utk jd hebat..haha..

ak ni xde la nk jd hebat..tp t'ingin gak la jd a part of them..yg kehadiran mrk dihrgai..yg ketiadaan mrk dirndui..dan pemergian mrk dirasai..;)..cumeny,ak bkn la spt mrk..haha

sbhgn org,xperlu pun nk equip themselves dgn skill2 or p'watakan org len utk jd hebat..dorg leh jd diri s'diri..sbb dorg mmg talented..

bg ak,d slightest talent yg dorg ad pun dh jd bakat bsr bg ak..huu..cthny,dorg pndai melukis pun ak kagum..sbby ak xreti melukis..haha..plus,rse jeles pun ad..hahaha..tp..xde la jeles smpai nk kacau org len..cume rse nk bljr bakat2 dorg tu..hehe..oh ye..ak ni xde bakat sgt dlm sukan berpasukan..so,kdg2 usha2 dorg men bola..badminton..tenis..squasy..kt stadium (mse ak jog)..t'detik la dlm ati ni..nk gak maen..huhu..tp,ak xde bakat sgt la..huhu

dlu,ak jeles gak tgk mamat2 slim fit ni..so..ak pun try la wat senam n b'sukan utk dptkn shape body..haha..ntah pape kn?..huhu..

ad gak usha swimmer kt stadium..t'ingin nk swim..then,ak sanggup bljr swim dgn kwn2 sume..hehe

pstu,ak suke tgk dorg ni lepak2 mlm2..huhu..sbbny,ak jrg sgt lepak mlm2 kuar dgn kwn2..so,ak pun cr la pape aktivit yg leh wat rmai kwn..hehe..

ak suke tgk org2 berpakaian smart n gud looking..so,ak pun tuka la cara ak b'pakaian..sanggup tu b'hbs duet..huhu...tp..xleh la jd gud looking mcm dorg..huhu

suke tgk mat2 moto n mat superbike..yg ni,ak xleh la nk wat ap..haha..ak ad moto jer..hahha..superbike tu,jaoh skali...nk bwk moto cluch pun ak xreti..haha..

hmm..klo jln2 kt mne2..then tpdg kapel2..either gay or str8 kapel..akn t'detik gak rse jelesny..huhu..s/time,ak ckp.."wah,sweetny dorg.."..hehe..t'ingin gak..haha..tp..xdpt ler..hmm

oh ye,plg pnting..ak sgt kagum dgn org2 pndai..so,ak ikut gak cara dorg bahagikn mse utk stadi..alhamdulillah..tu rezeki Allah..xleh la nk mntk lebih2 klo usaha pun cukup2 mkn..hehe

dan latest,ak suke tgk org men instrument..xkesah la pape instrument pun..so,ak pun tgh bljr men instrumen muzik..hahhha..GITAR..hahaha

cumeny,ak rse ak msh lum dpt jd part of them yg dihargai ni..yg ad rmai kwn2 ni..hmm..ntah la..rse mcm sia2 gak ak try bljr sume bnda ckit2..tp at d end..ak xde ap yg leh dibanggakn..sbb xde org yg nk bangga or hrgai ak..hmm..ntah la..
despite d hours i've spent for sport n healthiness,i m among d worst sportsmen n among doz who have sickness,
despite d time i've spent for studying,i never been listed as doz who are dean's list students,
despite d fren n new acquaintances i've knew n met, i m among doz who are still lonely n alone.hmm

xlayak ke ak nk jd sbhgn drpd sape2?..hmm..maybe kot.huhu..ak kn xde rupe..xde hrta..haha..kdg2 kwn kt tenet pun xmo kwn dgn ak..haha..ajk jmpe pun mcm ssh sgt..mcm la ak ni hina sgt..nk sex jer..ak bkn cmtu la..ak respek org len gak..hmm..

if i can't play ball,badminton or any..it doesn't mean dat i m not a sportman
if i m not a gymmer..it doesn't mean dat i can't be slim n fit
if i m not gud at pool..it doesn't mean dat i can't swim
if i m not as ensem as any one..it doesn't mean dat i m too ugly..:(
if i dun have s/one to hang out with..it doesn't mean dat i can't hang out with others
if i dun have a superbike..it doesn't mean dat i can't ride a bike..hehe..moto kapcai..haha
if i dun hve bf..it doesn't mean dat i can't find one..huhu..(really?huhu)
if i can't be d cleverest..it doesn't mean dat i m so stupid
if i can't play an instrument..it doesn't mean dat i can't be an artist..(seniman)

so..xde ap yg ak hrpkn..cume nk kwn2 yg iklas n leh tlg ajr ak bnyk perkara..just wanna be a part of s/ting..a part of u guys..hmm..

wassalam

baharu = baru

salam hai again..

korg tau x yg perkataan 'baru' dh ditukar semula kpd perkataan asal iaitu 'baharu'..so..skrg ni..klo nk ckp baju baru..kne ckp baju baharu..hahaha..xbape sedap..tp tu la hakikat..haha>>>>>ni selingan jer..hehe

ap yg ak nk smpaikn kli ni adlah..ak bljr bnda2 br sjk kblkgn ni..haha..

first..ak skrg tgh bljr men gitar?wat?ak s'diri pun xcaye..haaha..lawak pun ad gak.haha...ak mmg dh lme nk men instrumen..tp..mklum la..bnyk kekangan..hehe..kbtulan,kwn ak baru beli gitar letrik n amplifier..mmg satu set la..haha..pstu,dia lak ofer nk ajr ak men gitar...so..ak pun try la..hahha

ak kekok sbb xpenah pegang gitar pun..hhahahaa..kwn ak ckp,tgn mcm tgn robot mse straming..hahha..siot puny kwn..:p

pape pun,mmg best la..dpt ilmu baru..tp..ak br bljr kord basic dan kord lagu 'mmpi yg sempurna'..haha..lgu plg senang nk men..(tp ak stil xmahir2 lg)..haha..

secondly..ak dpt beberapa kwn bru lg..hehe..kwn bkn sbrg kwn..kwn2 cute n hot stuff..ahha,,ak ni kn pemalu ckit..so..ssh la nk dpt kwn baru..once dh dpt borak,memg best..hehe..just borak la..bkn plu pun dorg tu..hmm

sorg tu ak knal kt swim pool..lme dh ak nmpk dia..hehe..slalu tgur2 "hai" je..hhehe..kli ni..oleh sbb dia xtrn pool dgn kwn2 dia..so,ak bnyk la borak dgn dia..hahha..tngi dh same mcm ak.puteh lak tu..hhahha..

sorg lg..tngi gak..muda r ak..junior la..hehe..ak slalu nmpk mse park moto kt kolej je..tp one day..ak dtg booth 'silat recruitment' kwn ak..t'nmpk la mamat tuh..haha..so,ak pun borak2 la skali..hehe..klo nmpk dr jaoh..mcm sombong..tp,ok je dia tuh..hehe..so,sjk tu..klo t'serempak dia kt mne2..akn slg bertegur la..haha..

thirdly..most important..ak bljr utk kawal emosi ak ckit2..klo dh jtuh cnta dan dh tau yg cnta xkn berbls..so,smpan jela dlm ati..lme2 perasaan tu akn ilang s'diri..hee...thnx guys..:)..

bye..salam.:)

nightmare experience

salam sume..

pekabar korg?..alhamdulillah ak sehat..cume bape2 hr ni sjk ming lps,ak sakit tekek,batuk n selesema..haha..alhamdulillah xdemam..heee..

besa la,klo batuk2 cmtu kn ssh nk tdo..so,ak pun ssh la nk tdo mlm sgt..klo tdo tu,mcm meracau jer..haha,,bunyi lendir2 sumbat kt tekak..huhu..

then,smlm ak mmpi buruk..as usual,mmpi buruk ak msti psl kisah2 silam ak..huhu..dgn watak yg same..iaitu,
1)slh sorg senior yg pnah pukul ak mse kt skolah..(pukul gang bang-sbb kntoi ak ni plu..huu)..
2)my gud fren mse kt skolah s_ _ _ wan nameny...
3)my other fren..f_ _ d nameny..huhu

dlm mmpi tu,si senior tu pukul2 ak mcm ak pnah kne dlu..kne hentak..tampar..then,dia xpuas ati..slalu buli2..tiap kli terserempak dgn dia..msti dia akn cr pasal..

pstu,gud fren ak tu nmpk keadaan ak yg mcm zombi jer..dia n other fren tu dtg n bg semangat kt ak..

smpai satu mse..ak ngadu kt dorg yg ak xtahan lg kne kaco dgn senior tuh..ak mcm xsabar nk bla dr tmpt tuh..huhu..mse tu (dlm mmpi) ak tgh nanges..

then ak t'bgn,jam kul 4 pg..ak mmg tgh nanges btul2..bkn dlm mmpi jer..mmg terasa sdehny..huhu..dh lme ak xnanges cmtu..sjk ak jaoh dr idup ak yg dlu..sjk ak mula jaoh dr Tuhanku..huhu..

mmg sesungguhny p'alamn dlu tu msh lum dpt dilupakn..smpai terbwk2 dlm mmpi..huhu..ak xtau..dan ak xkn tau kenapa..sume ny berkait dgn perasaan plu ak nih..adoi..pape pun,smoga ak tergolong dlm insan yg b'syukur..amin..huhu..:(

sian dan keliru..:(

salam sume..lme gak xupdate..seminggu lbh..haha..bz ler..huhu

1)kamis lps,ak g lg homeless prgram area KL..as komiti..ak kne wat la kje ckit..hehe..t'msuk la idangkn mknn..sambil2 idang tu,dorg yg amik mknn akn ckp "terima kasih abg,"..adoi..sian ny ak tgk dorg ni..huhu..terharu gak la ble nmpk dorg mkn smbil tgk wayang pacak---antr hiburan yg mmpu dorg tgk..huhu

ad la sorg mamat ni..bersih je ak tgk..br lps mndi kt area situ..(ensem r gak)..haha ..dia amik mknn dr ak..then,ak bg la mcm besa..pstu,dia pdg muke ak then ckp...terima kasih ye abg..sayu jer dgr suara dia tu..dia xnmpk selekeh mcm stgh org len..mgkin dia xde umah jer..tp ad la kje kt area KL..hmm..sian dia n sian sume org homeless..huhu

2)"ak keliru!!!"ungkapan tipikal utk sume org yg xtau nk wat keputusan..tkot nk decide or bimbang nk decide krn memikirkn bnyk perkara..haha

now..ak mmg keliru....i mean..being plu tu dh keliru dah..huhu..tp skrg ni,ak rse mmg ak jtuh cnta..adoi..parah la lg..huhu..

plg konfius ialah..ak suke dia..tp dia xtau ak suke dia..dan..ak tau dia xkn suke ak..huhu..sbbny,ak syak dia suke org len..;(..and anor confusion,dia anggap ak kwn2 jer..tp napelah ak suke kt dia?..hadoi..huhuhu..

leh dikatekn tiap2 hr ak ingt kt dia..huhu..in fact,ak dh ilang minat nk jumpe sape2 kt tnenet ni selagi ak xjumpe dia..haih..perasaan yg ak xtau nk ckp..tkot nk bg tau dan bimbang nk ckp..:(

dan pape aktiviti n rutin yg ak wat skrg is just to deviate me fr hurting myself;dat is to fall for him more..huhu

d truth of.....

salam hi..:)

bertemu lg dlm blog ak yg x seberapa ni..haha..kli ni,cume nk make things clear with simple words tp padat..so dat,sume org leh fhm n xtany2 dah..haha..especialy org yg x suke m'bace..haha..so,kli ni lbh rgkas tp padat..:)

1)psl sumpah ak..

periwtiwa nk berlaku mse ak skolah men..fom 2 klo xslh..kt asrama..lps ak kne belasah dgn abg2 yg lbh tua dr ak..(setelah kntoi ak ni plu..huhu)..dorg wat la mcm 'mini trial'..konnony nk tau hal sbnr la..haha..(ntah pape)..then,ak disuruh wat satu konfession n jnji xmo wat lg bnda2 ni..then,ak wat la sumpah tu..yg kononny ak xmo lg kaco btg org..:(..mmg wierd..tp,tu la hakikat..huhu..dgn rela pun ak wat sumpah tu..so,scr zahirny,klo ak men btg org..then,ak kne la byr kafarah..bnda ni bkn maen2,sbb ak mmg nk tobat mase tuh...tp,ak bkn mcm korg yg ad choice...ak xtau cmne nk xplain..tp,ak mmg xde rse suke kt pempuan sexually..huhu..

one more ting..ak tkot gak nk jmpe org..klo ajk jmpe.msti ak ckp..xmo wat pape..klo nk pun,ringan2 je..xde heavy..tp,ble dh jmpe..dorg la yg nk heavy2..ak ni lak,mmg xreti nk lwn..hadoi..sbb tu kdg2 terlajak gak..losser kn?huhu..ak bkn wat men2 sumpah tu..cume,ak mmg dh cuba tobat,then xleh gak..try avoid heavy..tp..still..ak mmg lemah..:(

2)psl plu ak

ad yg kate..ak nk pikir sex jer klo jmpe mamat2 ensem..ak bkn cmtu ler..huhu..mmg ak suke je usah2 mamat ensem..haha..(yg charming ler)..tp,perasaan n perbuatan tu mcm sorg str8 guy yg pdg pempuan cantik tepi jln...x bermkna si laki tu nk sex jer..cume suke usha jer..huhu..yg bezany,ak usha laki2..huhu..sbb ak mmg x usha pempuan..:(..ak xtau nape..so,jgn la tany..huhu..

3)bout any..

smlm ak tgk citer hindustan "i hate luv storys"..dlm citer tu,diberitau ttg plot2org yg jtuh cnta..haha
i-gadoh
ii-drama
iii-plan
iv-airport

dan,antr tips nk tau s/ad kte jtuh cnta ke x..:-
i-aktiviti rutin mcm bosan n xfokus
ii-dh xminat nk cr psgn len or nk date dgn org len..
iii-asyik ingt kt s/one jer..

n i m truly in love..haha
ok..sekian..hehe..:)