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Friday 27 January 2012

aku teringin....part 1



salam hai...

sume org msti t'ingin mcm2 dlm idup kn???ad yg nk kaya..nk jd lawa..nk jd hebat..sume nk yg cmtu kn??hmm..ak pun ad gak impian2 cmtu..cumeny ad yg mgkin dh t'capai n ad yg mgkin sekadar angan2..haha..(day dreaming..haha)

1) ak t'ingin nk jd kaya sjk dlu lg..besa la tuh kn..hehe..t'ingin nk bljr sume bnda..eg:muzik..men sukan2 mahal..eg:paintball..racing kt litar..gym..hehe..nk ad keta..xyah mahal2 pun xpe..keta mesia je pun dh cukup..hehhee..umah pun nk yg agk bsr n selesa..xyah la banglo2 bsr2..hee

tp hakikatny..dlu mse ak skolah private..slalu b'gaul dgn org2 berada la..tp ak ni besa2 jer..x la kaya mcm dorg..hmm..bnyk kli gak kntoi x byr yuran..kne pgl dgn cikgu.suh byr yuran.huhu.sdeh tu ad r gak..tp,nk wat cmne..parents pun x bape nk mmpu..slalu t'tangguh..kdg2 malu gak dgn kwn2..byg kn la..dlm satu kelas..tgh bljr..tbe2 nme ak kne pgl msk bilk guru..sume org tau..tu msti psl xbyr yuran..hmm..ak minat muzik..tp sbb xde bnyk duet..so,xleh la nk bljr pape klas muzik..btul x?..hehe..tmbah2 lak parents ak mmg xbg..hmm..

kt kampus lak,kwn2 rmai yg ad keta..senang nk g mne2..hehe..ak xde keta..ak ad moto..parents ak belikn..tp dorg beli xbg tau ak..so,dorg beli jela model pape pun..hee..klo ikutkn,nk gak pkai moto sporty ckit..besala..remaja..hehhe..

umah ak bnyk r gak evolve..dlu ak duk setinggan..pstu flat..(malu r gak nk ajk kwn2 dtg...huhu)..skrg duk teres biasa...alhamdulillah..hehe..ok sgt la tuh..:)

ckp psl hrta2 ni,ak bkn nk kaya sgt..cume nk ad duet so dat ak leh bli pape yg ak nk..bju..suar.buku..byr yuran kmpus..tangungg mkn..hmm,skrg ni,ak xde sumber income..tp ak kne tanggung sume ny s'diri..ubat..mkn..bju..yuran..sume dr loan..parents ak xbg duet sjk ak matrik lg..hmm..cabaran2..:)

pape pun..kte msti b'syukur kn..hehe..alhamdulillah..

2) ak t'ingin nk perfect fizikal n imej mcm org len..nmpk ensem..pndai b'gaya..nmpk fit..bdn lawa..hehe..pnuh konfiden..xtkot klo jmpe org2 bru..dan org len senang nk gaul or tgur ak..hehe..wah..best2..hehe..

hakikatny.fizikal ak xcmtu la sgt..alhamdulillah perfect sume..cume mata ak sedikit rabun sjk kecik..ak pkai spek sjk dajah 2 kot..huhu..ese brt je mata nih pkai spek..hmm..dlu bdn ak pun gemuk..rse rndah diri jerk..xensem lak tuh..ad alergi pd kulit..jerawat kt muka...resdung..hmm..jd,imej pun biasa2 jer..tmbah lak ak mmg xtau nk b'gaya..huhu..kombinasi dr sume bnda ni..ak slalu rse rndah diri..xde konfiden sgt klo nk jmpe org2 br..maybe org len pun xselesa nk tgur ak..

hmm..ak xmcm adk ak la..dia xde pape mslh imej n fizikal.. dia lg ensem..pnah gak dgr kwn2 ak ckp..nape adk ko lg ensem..hmm..terasa r gak..muke dia pun muke org b'iman jer..hehe..x mcm ak..huhu..:(..plg ak sdeh n ak xsuke ble org rmai compare kn ak dgn dia dr segi p'gaulan..imej..yela..ak xsehebat dia..huhu..

pape pun..ak try gak b'ubah ckit2..ak stat b'sukan sjk ak eksiden..mse tu rse x de smngat langsung..pstu ak try b'sukan..jog..workout..swimming..alhamdulillah,fizikal ak ad la ckit p'ubahan..tp imej ak..especialy muke ak,msh bnyk jerawat..hmm..s/ting yg ssh nk diubah..

(bersambung ke part 2...)

2 comments:

  1. aq pun tringin gak jadi camtu... tpi bila aq msuk ipt nie entahla... aq rasa x penting pulak....hu3..

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    1. hmm..mmg kbnykn kte t'ingin kn?..huhu..bg ak sume ni msh pnting..mgkin ko dh jmpe s/one special kot..sbb tu xrse pnting dh..hehe..btw..thnx komne..:)

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