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Sunday 13 September 2015

Malam Pertama

Assalamualaikum..semoga sehat di sisi insan-insan tersayang...

Alhamdulillah, ak mcm biasa..hehhe...cume kali ni nak share ttg aktiviti minggu lps..for info, ak join program untuk golongan senansib dgn ak ni haa..ttg hiv..ttg plu..ttg transgender.. etc..mula2..ak ingtkn rmai yg join..tp ad la dlm 10-12 org..which is ok la for most ppl yg msh discreet ttg status sakit mereka..(mcm ak ni..huhu)...

mcm2 sharing session ad..dan mcm2 knowledge ak dpt....cume sbhgn kesimpulan yg ak blh smpaikn kt cni adlh:-
1) klo nk expose ttg status diri kt fmil or org laen,kne ad kesediaan...mkneny,klo ad di klgn plhiv yg terasa or teragak-agak nk bg tau famili ttg kondisi dorg, pikir dlu; s/ada korg dh ready nk bg tau ke belum? ready dr sudut ap yg nk dismpaikn..bagaimana nk smpaikn dan ready utk terima respon yg pelbagai..respon positif or negatif...klo rse x ready lg, mkney korg lum sedia lah nk bg tau..hmm.
2) Most of PLHIV yg dtg ad perasaan yg same..bercmpur baur dgn rse sdeh..kecewa..sunyi..tkot...dsbgny..huhu..ak pon smpai skrg ad perasaan2 cmtu..lum tntu blh ilangkn sume rse tuu...dan kami diajr mcm mne nk cope dgn  perasaan2 cmtu..but again,tertakluk pd individu..ad yg mmpu buang perasaan tu..ad yg xmmpu..
3) Sume yg dtg hr tu pon dpt info dr senior2 ttg ubat HAART..ttg kesihatan harian...dan ad yg berkongsi cerita mse dorg mula2 didiagnosed dlu...terdetik rse kagum ble tgk dorg msh tabah hadapi ujian..

cume,w/pun kdg dorg ni xberckp psl soal agama atau mgkin xtitik beratkn ttg t/jwb dlm agama,tp ketabahan dan keyakinan dorg mengalahkan org2 yg kononny kuat agama di luar sana..itu slh satu p'ajrn bsr yg ak dpt...tp pd pdgn ak..t/jwb thdp agama kne buat walau sejahat mne pon kte..hmm

next,ak nk bg tau yg smlm (12/9/2015) ak br start mkn ubat HAART..alhamdulillah...stlh setahun lbh ak diagnosed,ahirny ak pilih utk start treatment awal...last blood test result sblm mkn HAART menunjukkn penigkatan pd cd4 tp ad penurunan dr segi peratusan...xkesah la cmne pon,at d end..sooner or later ak kne mkn gak ubat tu..huhu...

ad la sedikit ujian smlm..ak br blk dr knduri mmber kt area Shah Alam..bertolak dr situ nk blk umah dlm kul 10 mlm...sdgkn ak target nk mkn ubat tu kul 10.30...huhu...berdesup ak bwk lju spjg hiway semata nk bg punctual mkn ubat...utk p'tahuan sume, ubat HAART kne mkn tpt pd mse...klo x,tkot x berkesan..

dan mmg rse la short term side efek ubat tu ckit sbb ia berdos tngi..side efek ni akn berbeza ikut individu..mcm ak smlm rse pning pale...tdo pon terbgn2..smpai pg ni,ak nk bgn subuh msh jln terhuyung hayang..tp ak ignore..dan ak truskn rutin ak g swim pool mcm biasa..alhamdulillah,blh la swim 1.5 km...but pning ttp ad lg...xpelah..slow2 ilang lah....kot..huhu..jujur ak ckp,rse lonely sgt ats katil smlm..ap lg,tdo mengerekot la..smbil berhrp ad org akn peluk dr blkg..smbil belai menenangkan ak smlm..cewah..huhu..mmpi aje lah wei..huhu

itu adlh citer mlm pertama ak yg ak nk share..iaitu mlm pertama bersama HAART..haha..org len mgkin bnyk citer indah psl mlm pertama dgn isteri..haha..tp itulah hakikat idup aku..akn ditemani HAART seumur idup..setiap mlm..

oh ye,sume plhiv yg amik ubat mcm ak akn diberi sedikit info ttg side effek...dan kaunselor nurse akn bg sekeping pamplet mcm yg ak letak kt bwh ni....hrp dpt mmbntu la ye...



23 comments:

  1. Keep strong...
    Bangga dengan kau.. sbb kuat hadapi semua nie...

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    1. insyaAllah...ak x strong mne wei...buat2 strong jer..huhu..tq for vieweing yer..

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    2. hakikatnya buat2 strong pun kena kuat juga..aku taw ko kuat..my prayers r with u

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    3. haha..ssh nk ckp cmne strong tu...insyaAllah...cume mmg terasa efek ubat tu ckit..haha...

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  2. Hopefully everything will be going fine for U ..
    Bermalam dengan HAART sounds a bit healthy ..kipidap .. :p

    Nu'man

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    1. insyaAllah...a bit healthy ko kate?cet...meh ak try bg sebutir pil..kikiki...konfom hi pstu..hahhaa..tq numan :)

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  3. Alhamdulillah & terima kasih atas perkongsian ni.

    Saya sendiri ada dua org kwn yg hiv+ dan saya tahu mcm mana sukarnya nak kasi sokongan moral/psikologi pada diorang.

    But remember this, Allah sendiri dah janji Dia takkan uji hambaNya melainkan dia pasti org tu kuat untuk tanggung ujian tu.

    Jaga kesihatan diri, jangan berputus asa, always stay happy & positif attitude. Jangan stress2. Selalu ingat, org yg berjaya lalui ujian Allah, insyaallah syurga balasannya.

    Keep up this excellent work. Terima kasih sebab tak give up dengan diri sendiri, tak give up on life. You have my heartful respect.

    thank you, from the very bottom of my heart. :)

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    1. tq bro...hrp kwn2 ko tu dh wat follow up or treatment..huhu..jgn lme2.. bahaya..bab syurga tu,no komen bro..kdg,ak s'diri msh wat dosa dlm keadaan ak poz ni..haih..cmne nk syurga tu bro?..huhu

      tq gak sbb bce ye..xsmpat bls awal..hr ni cuti,br leh belek2 blog..:)

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  4. Jangan lupa makan ubat...take care:-).

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    1. tq firus... takat ni xlupe...tp nti dh lme2 kang xtau lah..huhu...tc gak k..:) hope jmpe org baek2 ye

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  5. actually aku pun bangga ngn ang...walau dugaan nih berat, tp ang tetap teruskan perjuangan, IsnyaAllah ada hikmah semuanya, never give up k...if xde geng nk smbang bleh keep in touch ngn aku, just be strong! :)

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    1. thnx bro..ko duk kdah kn?so,klo ad bdk2 sane yg lost,nasehat la dorg..klo nk sgt fun,protection la k..

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    2. duk kedah? xdelah..aku skrg duk ipoh

      actually tak buat apa2 pun, tak brani nk buat menda2 tak baik kat luar tu

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  6. Ciss..ingatkan citer 'malam pertama' yang gitu2 tu..ekekeke

    :kidding:

    Makan ubat on time..jangan lupa!...bajet abang2 bagi pesanan dekat adik. hehehe

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    1. haha..mmg ak sje bg title ni...bg gempak ckit..kikiki..mklum lah,xde kesah mlm pertama yg ituu..haha...

      meh nk jd adk ko meh..:p

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  7. Assalam...ubat tu jgn skali2 skip or lewat makan...doktor ada bgtau,jgn lewat smpai stgh jam...apapun take care ye...hopefully VL jd undetectable mcm aku...

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    1. wslm...thnx abg..psni,leh tlg remind kn sy mkn ubat...hehe..alhamdulillah..dh undetectable dh..sy tgu la nti..:)

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    2. Just mkn ubt secara consistent...pk positif n jgn slalu down or pk negative...mmg kita semua ada mslh tp selesaikan mslh dgn cara positif...happy2 slalu...insyaAllah

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    3. insyaAllah..thnx abg.......same2 la kte epi2 k....abg pon xmo sdeh2...syukur mama abah ade..faham..:)

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  8. it takes a great courage to tell people what you're experiencing. take care WK.

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    1. thnx bro Yusuf...bg tau spy sume org dpt bljr...i dun kno..hopefulli la..huhu..

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  9. As salam.. I'm really admire your entry because it's really aspire me.. Make me realize to concern other people especially those with different condition as I am.. Keep strong, continue to pray & don't ever lose hope.. I'm looking forward to read your next entry and to know your progression. May Allah be always with you.. Insyaallah ��

    -Mohd Haz-Xym-

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    1. wassalam bro...thnx for admiring d entry..ekceli bnyk entry merapu je bro..hahahha...dan mgkin slh satu tujuan blog ni adlh utk guide plhiv yg msh buntu..huhu...ak tau perasaan tu dlu..mgkin xsehebat blogger hiv yg laen..but, as a starter mgkin...hehe..btw,dh ad entry bru dh .. yg mgkin lbh merapu..kikiki..:p

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