just another day....

This morning I woke up as yesterday and before

Either by an alarm’s ringing or a mom’s yelling

A sign to perform an important prayer

Asking for forgiveness and blessings from Him

I walked straight, purifying myself

Checking flaws on my face

Alhamdulillah, it still perfect on its place,

Although the scars of shame are still there

I am grateful, another chance to be here

Then, I’ll attend my responsibilities

Picking up stories of respected personalities

Enabling me to face what I shall see

Helping my family who count on me

Alongside my way

I’ll be meeting those who are happier

Smiling and laughing expressing their day

While I reply to them as what can I appear

Thinking of myself who isn’t able to become alike

Sitting alone and staring at the moment

Imagining their heart is filled with light

It is never filled with hatred yet remains exuberant

After a whole day of so called tiredness

 I’ll return at dusk to my shelter

Resting myself for some time

Before continuing my journey as a traveler

And meeting friends either in real or virtual if I have d chance

Sharing feelings and things that may not matter to anyone

Hoping someone will lend his ears or eyes stalking the tones

Dreaming someone will try to grab its theme and expression

For a while, I feel appreciated

Afraid of losing them who are so kind

But no changes have been fated

Since I am still alone waiting outside the line

Waiting for someone that won’t come

Confusing myself with the virtual feeling

Something that’s so temporary like foam

But with faith I am still wondering

Once a while, I’ll return to the nest

Assisting a mom clearing the mess

Playing the role, acting the best

While I am no one except a hopeless

But again, it’s just a chapter of mine

Waiting to be ended by a finishing

The end that I myself cannot find

Without knowing the future of a living thing